Considering how long I’ve spent writing some of these posts when I should have been working on other projects, I should probably add a new project to my list: this blog, aka Project Meta. I should also stop overthinking every word I write here. In fact, I’m going to misspell a word right nwo – and not correct it – just to get me in the habit of blogging more spontaneously.
Oh, who am I kidding? I’m only okay with that because I know it was deliberate. Everything I write here should be taken with a pinch of salt. It’s all planned in advance and rewritten multiple times, even the stuff that’s… oh, I don’t know… designed to sound spontaneous, even this bit here where I’m admitting that it’s all planned in advance and rewritten multiple times.
This stems not just from university, but from the desire to make myself seem interesting, because when trying to converse in real life I can barely think fast enough to construct coherent sentences, let alone say anything insightful. When I have the time to think through what I’m about to say, I naturally want to make use of it.
But I want to try editing myself a little less, for some posts at least, because editing can come at the cost of honesty. On reflection, the last two posts on Project Snails seem a tad overdramatic – which is okay for Snails because that’s something I’m really very passionate about, but if I start writing epic screeds like that about every little aspect of my life and creative pursuits, things will get ridiculous fast. I need to be honest, unafraid to acknowledge that in general my life is pretty mundane. For example, I recently tried the breakfast cereal Krave for the first time. It was okay. I might have it again soon. See? This is better already, right?
I don’t want to promise anything about the future direction of this blog, because one rule of the internet is that if you see a page with “New website coming soon!” on it in flashing text, you’ll then discover it was last updated in 1998. Saying you’re going to do things is often an agreeably easy substitute for actually doing them – which, come to think of it, is another reason I should probably spend less time writing these posts.
But I will keep writing them. Some of them may be in a more rambly, stream-of-consciousness style (I used to do this in my journal before university made me overthink everything), but I’ll try to write more thoughtful ones occasionally. I’m working mostly on Project Bubble this week, and if I have time I’ll say some more about that. And don’t worry, I plan for it to be entirely spontaneous!